The Butterfly Kisses

Busy

2012-02-07T21:17:00.002+08:00

I feel so sleepy and tired now while I'm typing this post.
Just reach home half an hour ago. Like finally I can rest.
But in a short while, I'll be heading out to JB again.

Anyway,
Even though I have started school, I am still doing freelance modeling after school and on weekends. Hmm... I can tell you it is tiring to juggle between studies, work and also relationship. But I won't give up in any because these 3 are the most important drive in my life. I wanna excel in all.

Schedule this week

Mon: Sch 9am-5pm
Tue: Sch 9am-12pm, casting 4.30pm
Wed: Sch 9am-5pm, work 8pm-12am
Thu: Sch 9am-12pm, photoshoot 4pm-6pm
Fri: Sch 9am-5pm, job briefing 5.40pm, work 7pm-10pm, work 11pm-2am
Sat: Work 3.30pm-7.30pm
Sun: Work 3.30pm-7.30pm

I have 3 assignments to submit. Human Resource assignment is due this Friday.
I haven't even finish half of it!

Okay, gtg! xx

2012-02-06T17:49:00.002+08:00

Statement - You don't know what you've got until it's gone.
Fact - You knew what you had, you just thought you'd never lose it.

2012-02-06T02:37:00.001+08:00

I feel that you are the best person on earth giving your best to me.

Thank you for always being here with me, for not giving up on me, for trying so hard to be perfect for me. And this! Being truthful, not lying or hiding anything from me all these years!

Lastly, thanks for making me feel special.

2012-02-04T14:50:00.001+08:00

2012-01-30T01:16:00.002+08:00

被你喜欢过，就很难觉得别人有那么喜欢我。

2012-01-27T08:32:00.001+08:00

Something I didn't do and wish I actually tried to do something to change the fact.

What if.

2012-01-26T21:14:00.002+08:00

RT @TheLoveStories

He who does not understand your silence will probably not understand your words.

Ipoh day 2

2012-01-25T01:59:00.001+08:00

Had reunion dinner with my relatives.

For paternal side, I have a big family consisting of 11 uncles and 2 aunties, more than 20 cousins and I think 8 niece? Already 41 people excluding my uncles' wifes and aunties' husbands! Although not everyone attended the dinner, more than 20 of us were there. It is good enough for me to reminisce those times when everyone was around :)

At later part of the night, I was at Overtime with a few of my cousins drinking! That's the first time I drink at Ipoh. Never know they had a drinking place here LOL. & that's also the very first time I drink with my cousins! Their alcohol is so much better than what I expected... Surprise surprise!

Ipoh day 1

2012-01-22T12:09:00.001+08:00

Hello world! xx

This is the first morning in 10 long years I wake up in Ipoh :)

I'm back at my dad's hometown for CNY and is staying at my 10th uncle's house. Things are almost just like those childhood times when I come back except that I have grown taller...

So anyway. I love this place alot. I like seeing the mountains here, the waterfall and the sense of familiarity I get when I pass-by places which I thought I forgot.

Memories. They still linger at the back of my head.

2012-01-20T04:24:00.001+08:00

2012-01-19T03:22:00.009+08:00

Why am I so angry with the world today? ;(

DISLIKE!

Gastric flu

2012-01-18T05:14:00.011+08:00

Finally, I can eat peacefully.

I am down with gastric flu since Saturday suddenly. Woke up early on Sunday with the intention of visiting my doctor and realized the clinic is closed every Sunday. I suffered through that day until the very next day. Most of the time on bed forcing myself back to sleep so time could pass faster, so I don't have to suffer the illness.

And like things are not bad enough for me, fever came along! Sigh. I feel cold even hiding under the blanket with no fan/air-con on. Whatever I eat, I can't finish even 1/4 of it. Even my all time favourite, fries, I can only eat one and was turn off by it already. Any food that goes into my stomach makes me feel bloated (regardless of amount), makes me wanna puke. Eventually I was turn off by all food AND I don't dare to eat cos I will feel that sucky feeling. So... Guess what? I only ate a few spoonful of food each day for the past 2 days...

Today, I'm so much better. I guess its the power of Love that speeds up my recovery!

2012-01-16T10:20:00.001+08:00

Why my body so weak? I can fall sick every few weeks =(

I wonder is it because of excessive drinking? This habit of binge drinking has been with me for 4 years. And from what I remember, I have been falling sick quite often ever since I started this unhealthy activity.

2012-01-14T09:43:00.001+08:00

Sometimes you have to forget what's gone, appreciate what still remains, and look forward to what's coming next.

2012-01-12T23:15:00.001+08:00

I was thinking of who are the important people in my life, who loves me.
And I will love them back, double. X

广岛之恋

2012-01-12T12:59:00.001+08:00

I never told you

2012-01-11T01:44:00.000+08:00

I miss those blue eyes. How you kissed me at night.
I miss the way we sleep. Like there's no sunrise.
Like the taste of your smile. I miss the way we breathe.

But I never told you. What I should have said.
No I never told you. I just held it in.

And now I miss everything, about you.
I can't believe I still want you.
After all the things we've been through.
I miss everything about you. Without you.

I see your blue eyes every time I close mine. You make it hard to see.
Where I belong to when I'm not around you. It's like I'm not with me.

Ippudo @ Mandarin Gallery

2012-01-10T13:05:00.000+08:00

Satisfied my ramen cravings yesterday :D

Shiro ramen

Karaka ramen

2012-01-10T03:27:00.001+08:00

I don't settle for less.
You make it right or you get left.

Chances

2012-01-10T01:47:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wonder what could have happen if you did the 'right' thing when you look back on certain decisions you made? Opportunities you missed or let go? I do, all the time.

When you have the chance to make things right, please do it. Because Life goes on and we move on. By then you won't have the chance to do it even if you want to. That's why it's call Chance. It don't come easily.

Sad, but true.

下雨天

2012-01-09T14:29:00.002+08:00

Hi

2012-01-09T03:35:00.022+08:00

When's the last time I sit down infront of my desktop?
Here, now I am, at 3.24am.
Don't wanna reply text on phone, messages on ebuddy and comments left at facebook.
Don't wanna sleep yet. Don't even care if I fail my economics paper on Wednesday.
That's me, when I have too much thoughts left in me.

These time. My emotions are high and low.
Sometimes I don't even know how to handle myself. I have been making decisions and feeling things with my heart and through all these times, when I'm happy, I'm 100% happy. When I'm sad, I'm 101% true to that. Is it good? I doubt so. The heartache I get whenever I'm upset is a BITCH. So I ask myself, why so serious? I have only one answer.

-

Almost lover.

How do you stop a feeling? You can't, can you?
You just have to be patient and wait for it to leave.

Till then, xoxo